I hadn’t heard of the Flawesome Award before, but I absolutely love the concept of it. In short, it’s all about turning your flaws into strengths. I’ve been feeling really down on myself lately, so this couldn’t have come at a better time.
The very lovely Kim, from her amazing blog Chimmyville, picked me as one of her nominations. She’s always incredibly sweet and includes me, of which I’m super thankful. Be sure to go check her out and show her some love. You can read her answers to the Flawesome Award here.
About the Flawesome Award
The Flawesome Award was created by Sophia Ismaa. The objective of the Flawesome Award is to celebrate the flaws that make us awesome. To quote Sophia:
Our flaws make us human, our flaws tell us more about who we are, and in turn we turn those flaws into awesome strengths. In short, our flaws make us #flawesome.
Rules of the Flawesome Award
- Link back to the creator – Sophia Ismaa Writes
- Display the award
- List 3 flaws and turn it into a strength
- Tag 10 other people
As you know I always end up breaking the last rule. I used to tag people, but I stopped doing it as the people I tagged often didn’t do the tag anyway. I also felt like I was bothering people and maybe they didn’t even want to do tags in the first place.
So, if you are reading this and you want to do this tag, then feel free and maybe give me a cheeky mention. Thanks. ♥
Having Zero Self Esteem
I’ve always had a negative opinion about myself from as far back as I can remember. I have theories as to where such a low opinion of myself came from, but nothing concrete. As always, with these kinds of things, it’s probably come from my childhood.
I have horrible thoughts about the way I am as a person. Examples, “I’m worthless” , “I’m a horrible person” , “I’m stupid” , “I’m not good at anything” etc.. etc..
Not only do I have those horrible thoughts, but I also have the worst body image on top of that. So, both physically and mentally I think I’m the worst.
My negative body image has got worse with age really, despite most people saying they feel more confident with age. I find more and more things to hate about myself every time I look in the mirror. Makeup helps me feel a bit better, but ultimately it can’t fix ugly.
I’ve also both been a low weight and I’ve been a high weight. I’ve also been every weight in between, but no matter my actual body size, I still always feel like the biggest person in the world.
So, in summary.. I hate myself both outside and in.
I am super stubborn. I’m a very typical Taurean in that respect.
If I have made up my mind about something, I really dig my heels in and it’s really hard to change my mind. Basically, if I’ve made a decision then it’s hard to sway me from that.
It also means that if you do me wrong once, I hold onto that and find it difficult to let go. I don’t talk to certain members of my family because I can’t let go of the past. Some people find it super easy to move on and forgive and forget, but that’s not me. I am stubborn and I hold grudges. If something really upsets me, hurts me, or somehow gets into my head and messes me up.. then I’m stubborn because I can’t let it go.
You also can’t get me to do anything that I don’t want to do. Some people are easily coerced, but that’s definitely not me.
Being too Sensitive
I take things to heart really easily. I can be upset by the smallest of things.
Anything can set me off crying too. I cry reading the news, watching TV series, films, reading books or even knowing someone else is sad can set me off. Of course, one could argue that’s because of my clinical depression, but I think even if I didn’t have depression I would be more sensitive. Life experiences have made me more empathetic I think. I can relate to so much.
A lot of things that most people would shrug off can really upset me. I’m just a sensitive soul really.
Turning my flaws into strengths
I’ll be honest with you, I’m not entirely sure how I am meant to go about turning these into strengths.. so I’m just going to do what I think it’s asking.
I guess having zero self esteem can be turned into a strength, because it means that I’m not narcissistic.
The fact that I am stubborn can be turned into a strength because it means that I don’t give up easily.
I think that being too sensitive can be turned into a strength because it means that I’m more empathetic.
Here is where I’m supposed to tag 10 people, but because I don’t want to bother 10 people.. I’ll leave it up to you if you want to do this. You’re welcome to say I tagged you though, or not, it’s your choice.
Let me know what you thought of the Flawesome Award and my answers. Will you be doing this tag too?
Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. I love hearing from you guys ♥
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