I’m going to be totally honest with you, I really don’t feel like posting right now due to depression.. but I read a post the other day and I can’t get it off my mind, so I want to talk about it. I’m calling this post, ” Depression doesn’t care who you are ” and you’ll see why in a minute.
Deciding to sit on my hands
So, the other day I was going through blog posts and commenting on them (like I try to take the time to do now and then). I came across a post that I didn’t agree with. So.. I started to type a comment in response, but I felt it wasn’t really fair to that blogger to do that and I didn’t want to invalidate what they were trying to say. Once I got to the end of writing a huge chunk of text stating how I felt about what they said, I then deleted it all. I do this often. Too many times I don’t speak out, even when sometimes I really believe I should. I wanted to forget about the post and move on, however, I can’t stop thinking about it.
Basically, they were saying that they believe being smart as a kid makes you more prone to depression. If you are the blogger in question reading this, or you know that person.. please know that I mean no shade towards you or them, I’m just going to write how I feel about the situation and I felt that it deserved more than just a comment reply.
Depression doesn’t care who you are
Being smarter doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll be more prone to depression. Sure, in certain situations this can contribute to it.. but I truly believe depression couldn’t care less about who you are. Your intellect, your age, your gender, your race, your life, your finances.. etc.. it doesn’t matter. For the majority of people, myself included, it’s due to a chemical imbalance in the brain. No outside influence can change that fact.
I think a lot of people don’t really understand that. So many people with depression get asked, “But why are you depressed? You have this, that or the other”
Again, I want to reiterate.. depression doesn’t care who you are. You can be a millionaire and struggle with depression. You can have the best family life and struggle with depression. Basically, you can seemingly have it all together and struggle with depression.
People are often shocked when a celebrity ends their life, claiming they had so much going for them. Depression doesn’t care who you are!
There’s a huge difference between being a bit sad and being depressed
Everyone experiences sadness from time to time. Things in life might not be going right, you might be going through something, or whatever the case is. Clinical depression is a lot different from just being a bit sad.
Depression is not showering, or brushing your hair for more than a few days. Depression is staying in bed, because getting out of bed seems completely pointless. It’s not wanting to do things you usually enjoy, because you just can’t face it. It’s bursting into tears for no reason. Depression is contemplating ending your life on a regular basis because you can’t see a way out of how you are feeling and the things that seem so difficult in your life.
People still don’t really understand mental illness
The other day I decided to type one of my mental health issues into Twitter search. I was hoping to find people to connect with that were struggling with the same issue I am, because I don’t know anyone like me. I’m being vague on what the issue is because I’ve not opened up about all my issues on my blog and I’m not sure if I ever will out of fear. I have opened up about depression and anxiety here, but I have other mental health issues I’ve not talked about.
Anyway, I was hugely disappointed when I found people were basically mocking something that plagues my every day life. Claiming they were a “bit” of my issue because they didn’t do one thing that day. It made me super sad and I ended up crying and basically not reading Twitter for a few days because I was so upset. People were poking fun at something that I’ve been struggling with since I was a teenager. It was horrible. Needless to say I didn’t find anyone that was truly suffering, just people not understanding what it is as usual.
It made me feel for people with OCD too, because so often people will go, “I’m so OCD” because they like to organise their desk or whatever.. and not understand that individuals with OCD are suffering way beyond that, to the point where it is affecting their everyday life and they even consider ending their life because they can’t deal with it.
It’s at times like this that I am surprised with how little progress we have made in understanding mental illness. There’s always mental health awareness weeks and stuff.. and yet, I don’t feel like we’ve truly got anywhere. Some conditions are more talked about than others too.
Not sure where I was going with this
I’m sorry, this is just a rant in general. I’m struggling at the moment and I felt the need to just get some stuff out of my head. My house is a complete mess, I need to shower and take care of myself and I just can’t.
I guess what I’m trying to say is depression doesn’t care who you are. Mental illness in general doesn’t care who you are. It can affect anyone, in all walks of life. You might not have ever had mental health issues or know anyone who has, but who is to say you won’t struggle with something later on in your life or someone you know.
So, I just want to say.. be kind to everyone, always. You never know what anyone is going through. Everyone’s situation is different too.
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