Depression doesn’t care who you are

Depression doesn't care who you are - image of female upset in black and white

I’m going to be totally honest with you, I really don’t feel like posting right now due to depression.. but I read a post the other day and I can’t get it off my mind, so I want to talk about it. I’m calling this post, ” Depression doesn’t care who you are ” and you’ll see why in a minute.

Deciding to sit on my hands

So, the other day I was going through blog posts and commenting on them (like I try to take the time to do now and then). I came across a post that I didn’t agree with. So.. I started to type a comment in response, but I felt it wasn’t really fair to that blogger to do that and I didn’t want to invalidate what they were trying to say. Once I got to the end of writing a huge chunk of text stating how I felt about what they said, I then deleted it all. I do this often. Too many times I don’t speak out, even when sometimes I really believe I should. I wanted to forget about the post and move on, however, I can’t stop thinking about it.

Basically, they were saying that they believe being smart as a kid makes you more prone to depression. If you are the blogger in question reading this, or you know that person.. please know that I mean no shade towards you or them, I’m just going to write how I feel about the situation and I felt that it deserved more than just a comment reply.

Depression doesn’t care who you are

Being smarter doesn’t necessarily mean you’ll be more prone to depression. Sure, in certain situations this can contribute to it.. but I truly believe depression couldn’t care less about who you are. Your intellect, your age, your gender, your race, your life, your finances.. etc.. it doesn’t matter. For the majority of people, myself included, it’s due to a chemical imbalance in the brain. No outside influence can change that fact.

I think a lot of people don’t really understand that. So many people with depression get asked, “But why are you depressed? You have this, that or the other”

Again, I want to reiterate.. depression doesn’t care who you are. You can be a millionaire and struggle with depression. You can have the best family life and struggle with depression. Basically, you can seemingly have it all together and struggle with depression.

People are often shocked when a celebrity ends their life, claiming they had so much going for them. Depression doesn’t care who you are!

There’s a huge difference between being a bit sad and being depressed

Everyone experiences sadness from time to time. Things in life might not be going right, you might be going through something, or whatever the case is. Clinical depression is a lot different from just being a bit sad.

Depression is not showering, or brushing your hair for more than a few days. Depression is staying in bed, because getting out of bed seems completely pointless. It’s not wanting to do things you usually enjoy, because you just can’t face it. It’s bursting into tears for no reason. Depression is contemplating ending your life on a regular basis because you can’t see a way out of how you are feeling and the things that seem so difficult in your life.

People still don’t really understand mental illness

The other day I decided to type one of my mental health issues into Twitter search. I was hoping to find people to connect with that were struggling with the same issue I am, because I don’t know anyone like me. I’m being vague on what the issue is because I’ve not opened up about all my issues on my blog and I’m not sure if I ever will out of fear. I have opened up about depression and anxiety here, but I have other mental health issues I’ve not talked about.

Anyway, I was hugely disappointed when I found people were basically mocking something that plagues my every day life. Claiming they were a “bit” of my issue because they didn’t do one thing that day. It made me super sad and I ended up crying and basically not reading Twitter for a few days because I was so upset. People were poking fun at something that I’ve been struggling with since I was a teenager. It was horrible. Needless to say I didn’t find anyone that was truly suffering, just people not understanding what it is as usual.

It made me feel for people with OCD too, because so often people will go, “I’m so OCD” because they like to organise their desk or whatever.. and not understand that individuals with OCD are suffering way beyond that, to the point where it is affecting their everyday life and they even consider ending their life because they can’t deal with it.

It’s at times like this that I am surprised with how little progress we have made in understanding mental illness. There’s always mental health awareness weeks and stuff.. and yet, I don’t feel like we’ve truly got anywhere. Some conditions are more talked about than others too.

Not sure where I was going with this

I’m sorry, this is just a rant in general. I’m struggling at the moment and I felt the need to just get some stuff out of my head. My house is a complete mess, I need to shower and take care of myself and I just can’t.

I guess what I’m trying to say is depression doesn’t care who you are. Mental illness in general doesn’t care who you are. It can affect anyone, in all walks of life. You might not have ever had mental health issues or know anyone who has, but who is to say you won’t struggle with something later on in your life or someone you know.

So, I just want to say.. be kind to everyone, always. You never know what anyone is going through. Everyone’s situation is different too.

You can read more of my health related posts here.

Let me know your thoughts in the comments below. I love hearing from you guys and I hope you are all doing well. ♥

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14 Comments

  1. July 2, 2018 / 2:44 pm

    I’m so sorry to read that you’re struggling my love. I’ve had a few bad days myself recently (although I’m also tapering off my meds) so I can completely empathise – this heat doesn’t help either. It makes it even harder to get going when all you want to do is stay in bed and drift in and out of sleep.

    Lots of water, lots of looking after yourself. You got this.

    (And 100% agree on the “just a bit OCD” thing – something that interferes with people’s ability to function is not the same as having a preference for your bookshelves looking a certain way JESUS)

    x

    • merkitty
      Author
      July 2, 2018 / 2:52 pm

      Thank you ♥

      I’m sorry to hear you’ve been having a bad time too. I hope it gets easier for you.. tapering off of meds can’t be fun.

      The heat definitely doesn’t help. I’m not a fan! Although, I wish I was.. because then I’d be cooler.

  2. July 2, 2018 / 9:32 pm

    How very true this is and I agree with so many of the points! Depression simply doesn’t care who or what you are it can still hit and unless you’ve been through it or currently going through it, you can’t describe what it’s like!

    It annoys me when people say they are depressed cause they are feeling a bit sad or low, yes they maybe feeling sad but that’s not depression, depression is so much more than simply feeling sad!

    • merkitty
      Author
      July 3, 2018 / 6:25 am

      Thank you. I’m glad you agreed with me ❤

  3. July 4, 2018 / 3:06 am

    Well done for writing out how you feel. It isn’t always easy but how you feel is valid and you deserve the space to share that. I’ve contemplated writing comments on posts I disagree with, too, but usually don’t! x

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    • merkitty
      Author
      July 4, 2018 / 9:43 am

      Thank you ❤

      Yeah, it is hard to reply to things you don’t agree with. I never want to have any sort of conflict.. but it usually means that I don’t speak up when I know that I should. I need to get better at that.

  4. July 6, 2018 / 5:54 am

    People use words without thinking of their meaning all the time. “I’m depressed” because my dog got me up early, “I’m starving” because I had my last meal 3 hours ago… not exactly like the actually starving children that are dying in Africa though, and so on. Also, with medical issues, most people just don’t understand the notions they are talking about.

    I’m sorry you feel like this. xx

    • merkitty
      Author
      July 7, 2018 / 2:36 pm

      Exactly what I was trying to convey. Thank you ♥

    • merkitty
      Author
      July 7, 2018 / 2:37 pm

      It truly doesn’t, it’s not picky whatsoever.

  5. Kay
    July 8, 2018 / 9:26 am

    Really appreciate this honest and heartfelt post, love. As someone who’s been struggling with depression for years (don’t want to get too much into this, though), I can definitely understand and relate to a lot of what you said. I agree completely that even these days, people don’t really understand mental illness.. I think there is a lot of judgement surrounding depression/anxiety, and like you said people not understanding the huge difference between feeling sad, and genuinely depressed. Thank you for sharing this. <3 xoxo

    Kay
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    • merkitty
      Author
      July 8, 2018 / 1:07 pm

      Thank you so much. I’m so sorry to hear you are struggling too. ♥

      Depression and anxiety are definitely not as understood as they should be by now.. much like most mental illnesses to be honest.

  6. July 17, 2018 / 8:04 pm

    The problem of misunderstanding is that until a person has experienced something like this they do not understand how this happens.

    • merkitty
      Author
      July 18, 2018 / 2:26 pm

      Exactly. It’s so hard to understand unless you’ve been through it.

      Thanks for commenting ♥

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